DISJOINTED - Another poem by Me


Here's another one I wrote back in 2009 still.  Again, emo back in 2009, so this is still very, very angst-ridden.

DISJOINTED

 I'm not so much alive as dead
It's all too much
All just too much to bear
I love you
No one-night stand would do

 But it's been so long
I lost calendar days
Keeping up with your pace
Flying on rooftops
Skipping on stones
Playing on cartwheels
Thinking of you alone

 I'm no good
If not with you
I can't be surreptitious
Even if I wanted to
Hidden in a void so deep
Playing with Sandman in my sleep

 I come sent by car crash hearts
Where broken bones are a way of life
It makes no sense
I take no heed
I only want to make me bleed

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